01-02-2019, 12:39 AM
Alright, I think now's a good time to get this crap off my chest. I can't keep hiding myself in the shadows like a wimp just because I get told I'm wrong.
I'm sorry for saying the wrong things at the wrong time, but sometimes I can't think of anything better to say. I can't figure out what to do or say in a given situation like this. Yes, I feel terrible for Yoshin since she's in the hospital, and even though I was never suppose to be involved in the first place and I CHOSE to be involved, I wanted to do my best to help the situation get better, not worse. I feel like an idiot for trying to get into a conversation that never involved me all because I wanted to be useful. I try and I try to help people in their lives, but it just makes things worse. And I get it, I can't always be involved, and I'm sorry I ever had to get into these kinds of problems at all. All I wanted out of MFGG was a community to share my Mario experience and likings, but I never, NEVER expected for it to turn out like this. Stir being banned, Yoshin being in a bad condition, staff stepping down, even VITIMAN leaving... I just can't handle this.
Again, even if I'm not supposed to be in these conversations, all I want to do is help people in my life. I like being helpful, I like being USEFUL, but when I get turned against, that's when I don't like it anymore. If people want to attack me in any sort of way without giving my positive feedback, then that's when I start screwing up and going into self-pity, thinking I'm worthless. I know I'm not, but I'm sensitive to the point where the slightest bad comment can make a huge impact on myself. It's not anyone's fault but my own, and I will be mature and take full blame on that end.
If I'm missing the point, then whatever, I tried to get across to you all. I'm sorry I joined MFGG at all if all I do is make people upset, or even mad at me. I'm sorry for saying the wrong things at the wrong time. I'm sorry for de-railing conversations.
I'm sorry that I can't get people to help me when I need it. I guess I'm just an attention seeker after all.
I'm sorry for saying the wrong things at the wrong time, but sometimes I can't think of anything better to say. I can't figure out what to do or say in a given situation like this. Yes, I feel terrible for Yoshin since she's in the hospital, and even though I was never suppose to be involved in the first place and I CHOSE to be involved, I wanted to do my best to help the situation get better, not worse. I feel like an idiot for trying to get into a conversation that never involved me all because I wanted to be useful. I try and I try to help people in their lives, but it just makes things worse. And I get it, I can't always be involved, and I'm sorry I ever had to get into these kinds of problems at all. All I wanted out of MFGG was a community to share my Mario experience and likings, but I never, NEVER expected for it to turn out like this. Stir being banned, Yoshin being in a bad condition, staff stepping down, even VITIMAN leaving... I just can't handle this.
Again, even if I'm not supposed to be in these conversations, all I want to do is help people in my life. I like being helpful, I like being USEFUL, but when I get turned against, that's when I don't like it anymore. If people want to attack me in any sort of way without giving my positive feedback, then that's when I start screwing up and going into self-pity, thinking I'm worthless. I know I'm not, but I'm sensitive to the point where the slightest bad comment can make a huge impact on myself. It's not anyone's fault but my own, and I will be mature and take full blame on that end.
If I'm missing the point, then whatever, I tried to get across to you all. I'm sorry I joined MFGG at all if all I do is make people upset, or even mad at me. I'm sorry for saying the wrong things at the wrong time. I'm sorry for de-railing conversations.
I'm sorry that I can't get people to help me when I need it. I guess I'm just an attention seeker after all.
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