06-24-2018, 10:02 AM
I'm very emotional when it comes to being lonely, mainly because it happens to me a lot. My friends have been busy with plenty of things in their lives, and usually on their relaxation time they're off playing games or doing what they like, rather than hang out with me and do what I'd like. I know that everybody wants to do their own thing, but it's become more and more often that my friends don't want to hang out with me as much as they did in earlier years.
Even if they do go and do things that I'd like with me, most of the time they don't really enjoy it, or have gone to it so many times with me already, it's become boring for them. I find it harder and harder to find time to spend with my friends, and especially since summer break for me came earlier than most other people, that leaves them with school and/or jobs while I'm stuck at home being bored until they come home. I'm like a pet waiting for their owner to return, if you'd call it that.
As I've said, I'm very emotional with this. I occasionally have outbursts when I'm not in a good mood, and I'm very impatient when it comes to things like these. These two things combined make me get my friends to sometimes take pity on me, and I really feel like a jerk afterwards. I'm forcing them to take pity on me, and I don't want to have it this way, but I don't know how to stop it.
Nevertheless, even with all of these things going on, I still have fun with my friends at times. I just hope things can get better for me in the future.
Even if they do go and do things that I'd like with me, most of the time they don't really enjoy it, or have gone to it so many times with me already, it's become boring for them. I find it harder and harder to find time to spend with my friends, and especially since summer break for me came earlier than most other people, that leaves them with school and/or jobs while I'm stuck at home being bored until they come home. I'm like a pet waiting for their owner to return, if you'd call it that.
As I've said, I'm very emotional with this. I occasionally have outbursts when I'm not in a good mood, and I'm very impatient when it comes to things like these. These two things combined make me get my friends to sometimes take pity on me, and I really feel like a jerk afterwards. I'm forcing them to take pity on me, and I don't want to have it this way, but I don't know how to stop it.
Nevertheless, even with all of these things going on, I still have fun with my friends at times. I just hope things can get better for me in the future.
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