07-13-2019, 11:33 AM
Okay so I guess I'm here too now.
I used to go by Kitsune Yamato or Nick/Nicholas Ainsworth here. I don't go by either of those anymore. Just Fourside or my real name, Ike, is fine.
I remember a lot of you and I owe many of you an apology because I was either openly a heel to you or I passively watched while others did it while I was an administrator here and for that, I'm sorry. I wish I would have been better to you all, especially when certain individuals went out of their way to turn MFGG into a swamp.
I also suffered a lot of abuse, which is why I left previously. GeneralGuy knows the story. I suffered a lot of blatant racism at the hands of several members and it made it extremely uncomfortable for me to be here and with several other members laughing with them, I just assumed I didn't belong and took my leave. Having your reputation and personal projects repeatedly trashed for no reason other than sheer hate will do that to you.
Since I was last on MFGG, I've moved away from Georgia to Pennsylvania. I currently live just outside of Pittsburgh in an apartment with just me and my dog. He's an okay roommate when he's not trying to eat my bacon. I've been working extensively on my art and comic work, which a handful of you may have seen when we crossed paths in the last decade or so. I've gotten a lot better since the days of “RyuFox Legends,†which now goes by another title that doesn't sound completely like a 13-year-old came up with it in 10 seconds.
I've also suffered a death in the family as well. My dad passed away back in 2017 and I'm still occasionally dealing with the grief from that. I've also been placed on medication for severe anxiety and suicidal ideation. I like to think it's working. I haven't seriously thought of yeeting myself off a building in months.
I guess that about covers it. I don't know how often I'll be posting since I work like 9 hours a day now with a 90-minute commute on each end of that but I'll at least try to drop some things in the arts board.
I used to go by Kitsune Yamato or Nick/Nicholas Ainsworth here. I don't go by either of those anymore. Just Fourside or my real name, Ike, is fine.
I remember a lot of you and I owe many of you an apology because I was either openly a heel to you or I passively watched while others did it while I was an administrator here and for that, I'm sorry. I wish I would have been better to you all, especially when certain individuals went out of their way to turn MFGG into a swamp.
I also suffered a lot of abuse, which is why I left previously. GeneralGuy knows the story. I suffered a lot of blatant racism at the hands of several members and it made it extremely uncomfortable for me to be here and with several other members laughing with them, I just assumed I didn't belong and took my leave. Having your reputation and personal projects repeatedly trashed for no reason other than sheer hate will do that to you.
Since I was last on MFGG, I've moved away from Georgia to Pennsylvania. I currently live just outside of Pittsburgh in an apartment with just me and my dog. He's an okay roommate when he's not trying to eat my bacon. I've been working extensively on my art and comic work, which a handful of you may have seen when we crossed paths in the last decade or so. I've gotten a lot better since the days of “RyuFox Legends,†which now goes by another title that doesn't sound completely like a 13-year-old came up with it in 10 seconds.
I've also suffered a death in the family as well. My dad passed away back in 2017 and I'm still occasionally dealing with the grief from that. I've also been placed on medication for severe anxiety and suicidal ideation. I like to think it's working. I haven't seriously thought of yeeting myself off a building in months.
I guess that about covers it. I don't know how often I'll be posting since I work like 9 hours a day now with a 90-minute commute on each end of that but I'll at least try to drop some things in the arts board.
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