03-28-2018, 08:52 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-29-2018, 07:57 AM by SonicZetrex.)
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Hey, everyone! It's really nice seeing around with the community with interesting topics, lots of fun activity, and other things related! But, what I wanted to say is something that never represent me of who I am, but became this way. For the start of this topic, I just wanted to start fresh and become explicit of what I have to say.
Starting out first, I normally behave like any human would when I used to be a preteen. It was occasionally decent and fair for most of what I can handle in any situation possible. When it comes to a dream of making "fangames", I could be a little snappy and simplistic at most cases. From the first time I've ever posted on the "Legacy Site", I became dolor of what I've been criticized as a "amateurish mechanic" that literally break the pace of the game. Usually, that how everyone felt by depression, but in later times, you learn and see what you can improve on.
Now for the next thing, I did visit on DeviantArt and I sort of enjoyed the way they've done around here (besides cringy drawings and posts...
). But, anyways, I said something that became a "regret" to my soul. It started out with the image of Ernesto's Drawing about a crossgender character. But be aware that you have to be a little mature to see it:
If you saw it, you probably noticed it's not around anywhere, right? I hid it for the purpose not be called out as a "child" in the drawing that I commented. Here's the comment that I posted:
And I regretted it...
At the time, I created a conflict that involves YoshiMan which really brings to a bemusing point of the whole thing. Everything seems to be a nice touch of him, but the problem about it is the "maturity" of moving on. Even though it seems roughly like how the character seems to behave, but it doesn't reflect how it was meant to be resolved. So I feel like my chances are low, and I seem to have ran out of ways to bring forgiveness from him. But unfortunately, it can make any situations even worse and cause a purity of annoyance towards him.
Lastly, if anyone knew too well about the incident from Discord, you already seem to know this. I created an art that appears to be feminine to my "male character", and yet, my "original character".
![[Image: moFK1IW.png]](https://i.imgur.com/moFK1IW.png)
Originally, it wasn't meant to be like a female-type, but I thought of it as the character seem to lean with beautiful remarks. Then again, I've been criticized on a basic that really bring the whole thing down. And yet, because of my simplistic nonsense, it made it even worse and started to lose a reputation of what I'm capable for. After the situation was settled, I urged to realize that not only I disgraced my characteristic traits, but also disgraced myself to everyone in the server. Truthfully, it's not actually a disorder, but something that blinds me from ever showing my real capabilities, though I was ashamed after that incident.
Basically, what I've been actually talking about is the way that I lack "maturity", and I want to apologize for every single one of you. You can believe it's a normal way to be forgiven easily, but something like this is different, and I want to make it up for the purpose of it.
I've been a fool throughout my life, and was suffering of what I'm going to do to redeem myself. So, hopefully, it should be clear enough to understand what I've been through to recover my potential of who I am.
For the last thing I wanted to say, I'm glad that @ReinlynxPSI mentioned the lack of leadership that someone showed during the making of the egregious game "Indie Game Battle". Because of that thought, it made me think of creating this topic of what I've been through with maturity with other people. No one is at fault or anything, but it's something that I have to do to finally cleanse myself and start over again.
His post remains in this link: https://forums.mfgg.net/showthread.php?t...78#pid7478
Thank you for the understanding and wish me luck to bring it back up again...
~SonicZetrex
Hey, everyone! It's really nice seeing around with the community with interesting topics, lots of fun activity, and other things related! But, what I wanted to say is something that never represent me of who I am, but became this way. For the start of this topic, I just wanted to start fresh and become explicit of what I have to say.
Starting out first, I normally behave like any human would when I used to be a preteen. It was occasionally decent and fair for most of what I can handle in any situation possible. When it comes to a dream of making "fangames", I could be a little snappy and simplistic at most cases. From the first time I've ever posted on the "Legacy Site", I became dolor of what I've been criticized as a "amateurish mechanic" that literally break the pace of the game. Usually, that how everyone felt by depression, but in later times, you learn and see what you can improve on.
Now for the next thing, I did visit on DeviantArt and I sort of enjoyed the way they've done around here (besides cringy drawings and posts...
). But, anyways, I said something that became a "regret" to my soul. It started out with the image of Ernesto's Drawing about a crossgender character. But be aware that you have to be a little mature to see it:If you saw it, you probably noticed it's not around anywhere, right? I hid it for the purpose not be called out as a "child" in the drawing that I commented. Here's the comment that I posted:
![[+]](/images/collapse_collapsed.png "[+]")
SpoilerQuote:It's just that..well..you know.. I don't know how am I going to explain (cringely) why I'm laughing.
It's...It's... just that... I'm not dirty minded compared to the others. I just found it funny about this kinds of stuff (especially YoshiMan's character "YoshiGirl")
It's still good! In case if you thought it was offensive, it's not!
*And also, whenever I explain about this and YoshiMan's female character, I abruptly laugh in every word. XD
And I regretted it...
At the time, I created a conflict that involves YoshiMan which really brings to a bemusing point of the whole thing. Everything seems to be a nice touch of him, but the problem about it is the "maturity" of moving on. Even though it seems roughly like how the character seems to behave, but it doesn't reflect how it was meant to be resolved. So I feel like my chances are low, and I seem to have ran out of ways to bring forgiveness from him. But unfortunately, it can make any situations even worse and cause a purity of annoyance towards him.
Lastly, if anyone knew too well about the incident from Discord, you already seem to know this. I created an art that appears to be feminine to my "male character", and yet, my "original character".
Originally, it wasn't meant to be like a female-type, but I thought of it as the character seem to lean with beautiful remarks. Then again, I've been criticized on a basic that really bring the whole thing down. And yet, because of my simplistic nonsense, it made it even worse and started to lose a reputation of what I'm capable for. After the situation was settled, I urged to realize that not only I disgraced my characteristic traits, but also disgraced myself to everyone in the server. Truthfully, it's not actually a disorder, but something that blinds me from ever showing my real capabilities, though I was ashamed after that incident.
Basically, what I've been actually talking about is the way that I lack "maturity", and I want to apologize for every single one of you. You can believe it's a normal way to be forgiven easily, but something like this is different, and I want to make it up for the purpose of it.
I've been a fool throughout my life, and was suffering of what I'm going to do to redeem myself. So, hopefully, it should be clear enough to understand what I've been through to recover my potential of who I am.
For the last thing I wanted to say, I'm glad that @ReinlynxPSI mentioned the lack of leadership that someone showed during the making of the egregious game "Indie Game Battle". Because of that thought, it made me think of creating this topic of what I've been through with maturity with other people. No one is at fault or anything, but it's something that I have to do to finally cleanse myself and start over again.
His post remains in this link: https://forums.mfgg.net/showthread.php?t...78#pid7478
Thank you for the understanding and wish me luck to bring it back up again...
~SonicZetrex
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